月餅；人

對我黎講，月餅好緊要……不過今年睇唔岩……我諗左多耐，literally，真係好耐。一個月？可能有……月餅，100蚊6小個，唔算貴。生果味、奶黃味、朱古力味、綠茶味，我覺得有少少厭……咁高級版燕窩、榴槤呢？又好似唔多抵。因為我一次食一兩個，大嘅一個/半個，細嘅食一、兩個吧。當早餐、小食。

所以，呢家寧缺勿濫……揀唔落，索性唔食……辛苦曬"V_V"(想喊樣)。陰公豬，無月餅食。買唔買流心奶黃？

所有人。由第一份工開始，你老細叫Tracy。算唔算係第一份工，其實我都唔太確定(要睇返啲履歷)。可以確定嘅係，已投身社會一段唔短嘅時間，待人接物，睇人眉頭眼額，我唔擅長。有改善。但我似一個xx歲嘅人嗎？

Tracy開外傭中介公司……我打唔落去……講得出，不過……總之，佢comment之一︰

- 我唔識同人相處，仲建議我搵下相關課程上添

- 成日抹鼻涕唔好睇

- 女仔要著裙

聽日係咪學人著條裙？哈哈……但係我從來唔著裙返工……唔方便做野。會覺得自己太lady，唔落手落腳做……行得可能唔夠快…… 最後Tracy炒左我，用最差勁嘅方法。佢嗌我睇電郵，嗌人黎面試。我以為佢請多個人，原來佢嗌我「自炒」……咁都得。嗰晚得知後，我好震撼……O了嘴。

工作上嘅人，中環Mandy、中環Suzie、銅鑼灣Winnie、銅鑼灣Jessica……Yeah, i know i screw up...... Can i fix it this time? and next time......

對人，原來我從來3分鐘熱度。好快受唔住同一個人，幾個月、一年之癢。有時會想同人更熟絡，但人地唔想。或某啲時候，調轉。我諗我將佢地嘅缺點放大，然後同人地講「你咁樣唔得架，你應該點樣點樣過活」……

do i want to fix the weaknesses? sometimes hate myself. may think, ya, it's good to destroy everything...... then you have nothing to lose. you can make an end then. if you have cultivating things so well, you don't want to let them go. at the same time, should you 留一線 towards people and things, because you never know what will happen next, maybe life will be easier.

this moment, you want to switch the life button off. the coming moment, you can't as you are expecting something to happen. when you are more lenient, maybe your world will turn around a little bit. better vibe.